|In an uneventful trip to the supermarket,|
I bought this ticket. No big deal. Just big money.
50 bucks! That's right! Take that Statistics class!
Today as I sat in statistics learning about probability, the teacher announced how very slim the probability is of winning at a casino. OK, I thought, I'll buy that. Then she slipped in at the very end, under or her breath..."Or on the lottery." I deflated. I had just bought the most expensive scratch off ticket yet, it cost me $10. I don't know why I did it, I just had a $10 bill and before I knew it, I was pushing the button for the one ticket that cost exactly that much.
I also bought a few lotto tickets: Hit 5, Lotto, and Daily Keno. None were winners, if you were wondering. The interesting thing though, is that as I checked the tickets online, I was able to relax as I did so. Usually I carry this weighed thrill, like if I wish for it hard enough, I can be a winner. It was nice to see some shift in that stress, to let go of the illusion that I have some power over the odds. (makes me think of all those good luck tokens at Bingo)
So, back to my big scratch off, Grand Fortune is its name. I sat down tonight, after a long day of working probability problems and seeing the chances of my hopeful winnings go deeper and deeper down the dark well of loser-dom. Every problem I did drove that gloomy message farther down til it became a part of my own belief, you are not going to win anything during sweepstakes month. There is science to back this up, classical probability theory. It even has a fancy name.
"But someone has to win!" my ever optimistic voice peeped, trying to be heard from way down in that well. Trying to change my peer-reviewed mind.
|I used my lucky dollar (one I found a week|
ago on the ground) to buy a ticket the other day.
I was sure that dollar was going
to bring me a winner. It didn't.
I think it all started back in grade school, at a fund-raiser in the school cafeteria when I won that ceramic ET lamp with the light up finger. That sealed my fate as a bonafide winner.
So, back to the Grand Fortune. No, I didn't win the $100,000 prize, or even the $10,000, or $5,000. But I did, however, win $50! My biggest winning yet. It may very well even out all the the non-winning tickets I have bought thus far. Which wouldn't be half bad, better than ending up in the red.
And hey, we still have 8 more days to prove that someone does have to win. And it might as well be me. The good part of it all, is that whether I win or lose for the rest of this month, I feel relaxed about it and carefree. It's for fun, it's not meant to be a pressure filled experience.
And with that, a peaceful sleep to all. Good night...