Look for the signs

Posted by Melissa Baumgart

First thing I saw as I walked into the coffee shop.

I have not been on the "Wow, Paleo feels like 10 cups of coffee" buzz that I started out on.  To be honest, I'm glad.  I am not inherently one of those chipper, always shining, happy people...so I wouldn't want meat to change that.  I wouldn't feel like me if I didn't dip down into the darkness once in a while and hate everything.

Today is a new day though, and I feel a bit better.  Maybe it started when I fit into a pair of jeans I hadn't fit into for months.  Take that scale, I guess I didn't need you this month after all.  Even the fact that my eggs came with cheese on them when I asked for none (I scraped it off), and there was a HUGE side of hash browns on my plate, didn't get me hating.  I didn't eat them BTW, a major, and surprisingly easy accomplishment. 

This was on my table when I sat down.

I do appreciate, though, that even when I'm hating on life...I am still awake to the good omens all around.  I have these things, signs, that when I see them I am reminded that I am in the right place at the right time.  And even on darker days, there they are, reminding me that even this is OK.  I don't need to be anywhere but here, awake to my own feelings, no matter what they are.

A few of my recent and long term good signs:

• Owls
• Black Escalades (don't ask)
• The #9

Stay awake!  Be right where you are and be your own witness to your own life, no one else can do it for you.