cause i am moving so slow. it's ok. i think i am afraid to cut the fabric. so, i keep putting it off. so, today is day three of being supposed to cut the fabric. and i have school stuff with the kids all day and i work at night. maybe tomorrow. i did iron the fabric last night. it was really nice to do. i like ironing, and i hardly ever do it. the house was clean and quiet....the girls had stayed up late cleaning their room. which is awesome! and i let them sit on the couch for a show with me while i ironed. we watched "Battle on the Block", an HGTV home design do it yourself kind of show. Lily and i love that stuff. Tallulah fell asleep immediately (yeah!) and it was just so meditative and sweet, yes, even with the tv on. candles were lit and i have a new houseplant on the window sill...oh, which i bought when i was finally getting the things for my garden to grow up upon...instead of over the raised bed walls and onto the grass. i got these cool twirly bamboo sticks for the peas...i hope it works. anyway...it was very cozy in here last night and i am still kinda feeling the buzz from that. here's my work in progess...
see, remember just the other day i was sitting in the apartment....thinking i should clean it cause if was so messy, but i took silent time to just be. and now here i am, and the apartment did get clean. everything moves, nothing stays the same. so...lesson for me, don't get all down when things don't look or feel the way i want them to. sit with myself. and know that nothing is forever. be flexible, vulnerable, and open. receptive. i may have an idea of what i want, but if i am open and receptive...the possibilities are infinite, and my idea of what i want could stifle that flow. oh, i am rambling. gotta get the kids ready for their last day at Bright Water School.
here's to cutting the fabric!