fo shizzle.

sitting at victrola. my favorite thing in the past two days. i get to sit here, and actually have something to keep me busy. i have focus. i have purpose.

i am working on the kid's school auction. at times it is overwhelming...only because i beat myself up about not doing a good enough job. and then there are times, when i get into it, that i really really enjoy doing the work. emailing, coordinating, pulling together all the loose ends and actually not forgetting anyone or anything. I hope.

another highlight of the past week...snoop dogg. saw him at the showbox with my brother. jamie was supposed to be there, but he got a little too intoxicated and had to leave. big fight in our house this week. he wanted me to leave with him. WHAT? i sent him in a cab with a twenty and our address. and he was fine, he didn't die or anything. and snoop was awesome. well, from what i could see through the haze. the whole world is like the LBC to me these days. everything relates to being a gangbanger. what is wrong with me...i am a white mom in seattle with three kids. repeat to yourself, melissa...."you are not a gangster."

sadly, i have not danced all week. i mean, not danced the routine...cause i did get my groove on at snoop. this is exactly what i did not want to happen. that vision i had of me was still busy, but still doing whatever the month's thing was. so, i bounce back and forth in my head....maybe dancing isn't my thing....maybe i am just not giving it my all.

so, then there is life. the emotions, the chores, the questioning why the fuck we even do any of this at all, the pondering of existence. these are the everyday things in my house. if it is not me, it is my husband. sometimes i wish we could just live our life and not be so...so, god damn contemplative. man up Baumgarts. just get on with it.

i was watching the Oscar's the other night and on barbara walter's special afterwards, monique had some words of wisdom. i can still hear her in my head. "it ain't heavy, mama. let it go." how do you master that act?

now back to auction emails.

sorry to have been gone so long.

i am for sure back after the auction on saturday.

and class is tonight...that should be inspiring. we will learn the whole thing tonight.

What to do?

Good Morning! An unexpected day off...what to do? I am going to practice dancing, clean, and.....??? Suggestions please! Enjoy your Tuesday...I will :)! XXOO-Dina

Top 10...

So I wanted to blog about something interesting but well it has not been that kinda day..just really nothing interesting. I am trying hard to appreciate the little things so I thought I would give you the top 10 things good or bad that happened on a not so interesting day! 10. The bonky bird is back (for years we have had a bird that likes to bang into our playroom window. I makes me nuts and we have tried all kinds of things to make him go away...would love any suggestions. Kinda wanting him to knock himself out one of these days :)) 9. I did not clean or do laundry! 8. No work! Got to spend the whole day with Hazel and 1/2 with Madeline. 7. Worked as Parent Helper in Madeline's school. We really are so lucky..what a great classroom. She has just learned so much..I have always been impressed by teachers but this tops it for me! 6. No big news...we are kinda waiting for big news! 5. Jamie called me Flexible! I know he probably would never have thought I would remember that (funny how you never realize what you say to someone could really stick with them) this is not really a word I would use to describe me and scary that I do teach this on a daily basis. This is something I have been working on happy that someone noticed! 4. Going to go to the gym late so I can sneak in the yoga room and practice my dancing! Class Tomorrow!!!! 3. Took my girls to get our toes done. I got a real pedicure and well they got one kiddy style. They totally loved it and as a mama it was most fun for me. Hazel giggled the whole time and Madeline just wanted to make sure it was perfect. 2. I was proud of my girls. I really can take them anywhere. They sat quietly for almost an hour while I had my appointment in a small nail place and they were just sitting and reading the books we took with us. They are amazingly well behaved most of the time...I was really proud of them. Oh and this was before I told them they could have their toes done :)! 1. I felt really happy all day..sun was out and really nothing to complain about! well..except the bird that keeps bashing my window as I type! Hope your not so interesting day was as fun as mine:) XXOO-Dina